Wednesday, June 10, 2009

My Sadness


I am feeling a bit low today, and have been sitting on the glider rocker by myself in the meatloaf position most of the day. When my maid took to the couch for an afternoon nap, I joined her. She is a little worried about me, but I have told her that I am just mourning my loss and will be back to myself in due time.

On 22nd May I lost my son, Timothy. There was no warning, as he was not ill at all. He just crawled under the futon in the living room and passed quietly away, and there my maid discovered him. He was 11 years old and Timmy and I were as close as any mother and son.

Timmy was from my first litter, when I was a youngster of one year, and his father was named Curtis - a very handsome lynx point siamese. As it turned out, all four of that litter were lynx point like Curtis. Timothy stayed with me, and as my serving staff will tell you, he was always a true "Mama's boy". Seldom did he allow me out of his sight and whenever he napped, he wanted to be curled up with me. I admit, I did spoil Timmy, and perhaps he was too attached to me.


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The truth is I adored him, and now that he is gone, I find myself at loose ends and often catch myself looking for him about the house. I miss him at nap time especially, and as my serving staff has noticed, I have been more affectionate towards them than is my custom. A few times I have even allowed myself to curl up against young Winston, of whom I am not particularly fond - but it is not the same.

I have read from many of you about similar losses, so I know that I am not alone. Perhaps in time I will get used to napping by myself and not find myself each time on the verge of tears.......or perhaps I will even form a new bond with one of my housemates. Only time will tell.

Timothy was laid to rest in a peaceful spot by the edge of the woods behind the house. I can see the large stone that the serving staff placed there to mark the spot from the kitchen window. Sleep well my dear Timmy. I miss you and will love you always.

Leia

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Timothy

23 comments:

Zippy, Sadie, Speedy and M'Gee said...

We're so sorry for yoor loss, Leia. We could tell yoo it gets better but yoo prolly already know dat. Zippy still looks fur Punkin on occasion and it's been 8 years since she went to da Bridge.

Karen Jo said...

I am so sorry for your loss, Leia. It will get better in time, but it takes a long time.

Memories of Eric and Flynn said...

We are sorry your beloved son went to the Bridge so unexpectedly Leia. It must have been a big shock to you and to your Beans. We were the same when our Kitty Yumbum left us. We still like to go and sit on her grave so she knows we are thinking of her.

Frostin said...

I'm sorry for your loss Leia. Timmy looks like he was a nice kitty. I wish I could have known him.

The Creek Cats said...

Timothy was very handsome. He was also very lucky to have been with his momma for all of his life. We know how very much you miss him, Leia. We lost our brofur, Cal, who was 10 years old, in March and we are still very much mourning the loss. We are sending you our best comforting vibes and hope to ease your sadness.

The Kitty Krew said...

Ah, Leia, we're so sorry to hear you lost Timothy. He was such a handsome mancat, had a bit of a tiger look to his face! Remember the good times and the pain will fade a little.

Purrs and hugs,
The Kitty Krew
Bugsy, Sassy, Callie, Roxy, and Pixie, and Their Mommy

Angel Junior, Orion and Sammy said...

Oh my goodness Leia! Timothy sure was a gorgeous meezer and it sounds like he was an almost purrfect son. We had a meezer sisfur that we never knew...Meowm says she passed quick like Timothy. We are so sorry for you loss and we are sending purrs of comfort to you and your family.

Daisy said...

Oh Leia, I am so sorry about Timothy. He sure was a handsome kitty. It is good to take some quiet time and remember him. Soft purrs to you.

Anonymous said...

We're sorry to hear about Timothy. Please know that we're purring for you.

Noir the Texas Tabby said...

Leia, our prayers and purrs from our house to yours-about your loss. Your handsome son Timothy has a special Mommy.

Noir in Texas

jenianddean said...

Timothy was a very handsome mancat. I am sorry to hear of your loss. It's OK to miss him...
--Jasper

Angel, Kirby and Max said...

We are so sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing his story. We find that sharing the memories helps the healing process.

The Florida Furkids said...

We are so sorry to hear about Timothy. He was really handsome and we know you must miss him a lot. Maybe this is a good time to snuggle with your Mom a little more since she is probably sad too.

Sniffie and the Florida Furkids

Angel MoMo and Charlotte said...

I am so sorry for your loss. Snuggle with your mom as I am sure she is feeling it as well. Tim was such a handsome cat. It is perhaps fortunate that he did not have to suffer the pains of illnesses and went to the Bridge peacefully.

Tuck said...

I am so sorry to hear about Timothy. You must miss him so much. I hope you are comforted by knowing that he is free and healthy at the Bridge. I'm purring for you!

Teddy Westlife said...

Oh Leia I'm so sorry to hear about Timmy. I am purring for you.

Huffle Mawson

Cheyenne -Millie said...

I am sorry for your loss, Leia. We understand how it can hurt sometimes. He was really a handsome Mancat.

Unknown said...

Leia, this is my first visit to your site and I find such sad news. I hope you will feel better soon. We all know how hard it is. When one of us looses another the pain is shared by many friends.
May your memories comfort you soon.

The Island Cats said...

We are so sorry to hear about Timothy...you have our heartfelt condolences...purrs....

Alastriona, The Cats and Dogs said...

We are very sorry for your loss. Timothy was a very handsome boy and we are sure he was a wonderful son. ~S,S,C & F

Katiez Furry Mewz said...

Dearest Leia... it is always hard to miss your boys... there is a saying among humans that a mother should never outlive her son.

We are purring fur you dat you find comforting love with your human Mom.

Katie and The Katz

Freya's Staff said...

I'm so desperately sorry to hear about poor Timothy. It must be very hard still, after this time has passed. We're still thinking of you Leia.

Jans Funny Farm said...

We notice you didn't make many posts after this one. We guess you haven't recovered from losing your Timothy. Sending warm purrs and tail wags.